Two Days In One

Monday, 9th February, 2009

Nothing extrodinary happened.

Tuesday, 10th February, 2009

Well this morning, I got so angry at my... dad. I accidentally broke a glass. Not that big of a deal, right? Well wrong, according to him. He got so angry. And then he got angry at some other little things I did. Accidents happen.
It's like I'm never good enough. Everything I do is wrong.
I walked to the bus stop, and I was fuming with anger. I got on the bus, and I was angry. And then I realized that being angry at everyone won't solve anything. And then simple as that, my anger melted and I stopped being angry.
My mood changes easily.

On a different note, Jimmy and I hooked up. (French-kissed, I think it's called) It was my first. I don't know how to explain it. It was good, but... I don't know. Mechanical maybe? I don't know. It was good and everything, but I didn't really feel much of anything.
And just before we kissed, when were about... 5cm apart, I laughed. Ugh. I laughed slightly. What is wrong with me? Who does that? Who laughs when they're about to hook up!?
Oh well I guess.
That was at the end of lunch. I'm skimming over everything quickly because I have to get off the internet soon.

So then, the period after lunch, I told Bronte what happened. She told me she saw a bit [jimmy and I were away from any large groups of people and the bell had just gone so I assumed not many people saw] and she told me that a few people saw. And then she said: You're not going to have sex with him are you!?
I did not know how to react to that. Whether to be offended, hurt, or just weirded out. I told her that I definetely would not be.
And anyway, that period we had a test that I had not studied for. Luckily I aced it, even though I was really worried about it.

So anyway, I got home that day, and my dad got really angry over the littlest thing. I hate it. I hate it so much.

I told Emily about me and Jimmy. She didn't seem that happy for me. I don't know why. Maybe I talk about myself to much to her. I'll start talking about her more.